When I was 9 years old my parents divorced and, whilst the divorce itself was the ‘easy’ part to deal with, a range of other complexities arose resulting in me having to support those around me. This was a huge burden for me to carry. I took on the hurt and heartbreak of those around me, as well as my own feelings of anger and heartache.
I learnt that the best way to deal with my emotions was by suppressing them. I desperately sought control over my life and consequently developed a number of coping mechanisms. These formed into unhealthy habits, but were the best means I had of gaining control and giving my emotions at outlet. I developed a toxic relationship with food, I slept poorly and I punished myself, which inevitably consumed my life and led to me feeling incredibly insecure and lacking in self-worth.